i hope i'm not catching the SPG-syndrome.
ironically, i laugh and tease others when they tend to ogle or favour caucasians (like szeman who was on an angmoh frenzy a while back, and my cousin gracey who's currently in Boston while i await her coming home with a potential US cousin-in-law).

it's hard not to take notice of those exchange students.
last friday i was ogling at this caucasian dude i bumped into twice that day.
obviously he's cute, dresses relatively well and his cologne smells good.
so i couldn't help but keep staring admirably at him.
crikey, now i wonder who's gonna get the last laugh.

also i realised that the term "eye candy" has been missing from my entries for a long time. ah well, i guess that was really just a phase where i started becoming bored and developed an unhealthy obsession (of course less unhealthy compared to my CRAZEE secondary school days).
so right after i found out he had a girlfriend, he's been shut out of my life.
as simple and easy as that.
lol, what a convenient crush.

though i wished i had something to take my mind off stressful matters.
the mountain piling of work, bleak future prospects and uneventful social life.

took a breather during the weekend, and now i'm up to my neck in work.
ah, i'm regretting it already.

nevertheless, it was fun visiting the asian civilisations museum for the Hidden Faces exhibition with mom&dad. (it was free, that's why they were so willing!)
and watching death note later at GV Vivo with zhuang and szeman.
vivo city's freaking huge and a word of advice: don't ever go there during the weekends. you'll just be amazed at how scary the crowd would be like.

yesterday i caught my first live EPL match this season!
haha really pathetic for a so-called soccer fan but that's the price to pay for having no SCV on my tellybox.
scrambled downstairs to one of the dessert shops showing the match (double RED clash: United VS Liverpool) on my own, ordered a drink and promptly sitted myself at one of the nearest seats facing the screen.
i think some of the guys there must be pretty puzzled by me since i was trying very very hard to cut down my display of aggressiveness when i get tensed while watching a match :)

and YAY, i proved to myself that i didn't jinx the team.
a 2-0 win with Scholesy being my hero! i love it how the veteran players are still the prominent players with impact. of course we need new blood with the likes of Ronaldo, Rooney and Carrick etc, but i think United plays best with the older players in form. makes me nostalgic about the wonderful team back in the late 1990s and early 2000s.

tomorrow's a public holiday but no rest for me :(
it was never meant to be a holiday for me since i had meant to do my lab report the entire day. but now it's changed to a project meeting.
which means lesser time to finish my report and lesser time to study for test.
ahhhh i foresee less shut eye already. bless me.

i really dread logging in to blogspot.
backlog's nagging at the back of my mind and i feel bad for making the empty promises to myself and others regarding the updates.

ahhhh but time's elusive and i don't exactly have a lot of time to sit down and blog at ease. i absolutely cannot tolerate scrappy posts so no fast-speed entries for me.

speaking of which, things have been bad lately.
workload's coming at a consistent rate. everytime i finish an assignment albeit all puffy eyed and dizzy from lack of sleep, there's another one waiting for me.
though i do wanna give a self pat to myself for keeping up the hard work :)
and the haze is like meh.

i hate to think about it but recently TODAY published a headline regarding the career prospects of life science graduates. it was totally demoralising and subsequent letters/responses from fellow graduates paint an even sadder picture.
now if they only need PhD students, what's a BSc like me gonna do? wash test tubes?
oh golly, i don't even want to imagine that.

at a time when i'm finally happier with my modules, this 'bleak future' prospect is certainly throwing a huge cloud over me (added with thunder and lightning).

ahhhh please do not ever make me regret that i stupidly chose this degree.
i still have a year to struggle through. i need my motivation!

sometimes i wonder.
of what i give to people, how much would they give back to me.

maybe i'm being too naive.
i'm just starting to realise that the give-take ratio will never be equal.

i should have known.