not the best time to be making a major update.
but WTH, midterm's already wasted so what's the big deal with a few hours?
last i blogged, i was whining about the lack of CNY clothes.
well CNY came and went without much problems.
though my paycheck and the hongbao money fattened up my measly bank account a little.
which prompted the shopping monster in me to wage war on the yahoo auctions.
my stash includes 4 tees, 1 jacket, 1 pumps, 4 bags, 1 wallet and counting.
i'm so terrible right?
celebrated the coming of age for one of us in the month of january.
and sent off two of us overseas.
will miss you, homo and chun :)
and these past months 208's been meeting up quite a bit.
(which i'm so darn happy about)
our first CNY reunion dinner compliments of dearie zhuang and her family.
and all the various chill-out and swimming sessions.
(go catch brokeback mountain. it's great.)
everyone's getting busy. likewise for me.
but i could never conjure up sufficient motivation for studying.
let's not mention about wasting the entire midterm.
i have absolutely no self control especially at times when i should.
is this what you call as the rebellious streak?
but goddammit i'm almost 21, not some spunky teenager.
the presence of mum and dad 24/7 just makes things worse.
now i see them so much since they are currently jobless.
on one hand, i'm guilty for not doing any work.
the another hand, i just feel like cutting off their incessant nagging.
the biggest blow came when i found out about my test result.
darn this time i studied hard ok.
so demoralising.
i've been convincing myself so hard all these time that i'm doing the right thing.
all i want is some results that can encourage me to spur on.
but every single time i'm disappointed.
is it because i don't put in enough hard work compared to others?
or maybe i just suck at my major?
i really don't know the answers anymore.
march and april's gonna be hell-ish months.
i just hope by then i don't give up.
so worn out.
