i'm so tired of studying.
the feeling where you felt like you've just overcome a major hurdle and superbly relieved. then you realise in fact, there's so much more ahead and the sinking feeling reemerges.

that's the NUS system.
you simply have to plod plod plod all through the semester and the real end is only when the final exams are all over.
i'd have to salute the muggers who can keep up with this system.

two.
just that number of papers and days to endure.

i'm trying real hard right now to regain my momentum.
firstly, i'm mentally and physically worn out.
secondly, i'm very distracted.

about what... hmmm maybe chin would know.
i just feel really silly but can't help myself.
and the reason why there's no progress is because i myself refused to step out of my comfort zone. so each and every time, i can only stand afar and look. while hoping for something to happen.

sighs i'm such a failure.
i have the gut feeling that this time it'll end up with the same results as it did with the previous instances.
all because i refused to do anything more.

that aside, i'm super darn excited about the taiwan trip.
though the weather's quite a bummer but when i think of the food, shopping, hot springs and that fact that i'll be finally visiting jay chou's hometown, everything's so worth it. (even though it means relegating my bank account status back to the single digit state T_T)
and it'll be my first ever friends-only trip. yay!

my prior experience tells me that holidays is the time when you're in high risk of being reduced to bankrupt status. (applies exclusively to me)
i better start hunting for a job real soon.

now it's back to studies and more studies.