"Does it hurt more
not knowing what you want,

or does it hurt more
knowing what you want and yet can't achieve it?"

a quote i recycled from my older entry.
which one do you think hurts more?

i know i never cease to talk about that topic time and time again.
but that quote really does strike a chord with me.

i think i belong to both categories.
archaelogy's being my love and what i really want to do.
but i can't achieve it, or more like i'm beyond reach.

leading to this situation of being directionless.
if someone asked me this question, "why are you studying life sciences?"
i don't think i'll be able to give an answer.
truth is i just jumped on the bandwagon and half convinced myself that i love biology.

people say that if you believe, it'll come true.
i want to believe but the conviction's not there.
maybe i'm too cynical. maybe too idealistic. i don't know.

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dropping that moody issue, chin was commenting how funny our past entries were. we were reading each other's entries dating back to 2 years and surprised at how childish we sounded.

kinda miss the days when we'll blog about nothing in particular.
like how we are exhilarated at the new naruto manga release, whining about being bored at home, grumbling about our shopping expenditure etc.
now most of our blog contents comprise of school school and more school.
seems like there's nothing else constructive to say. =(

and in 2 years, so many things have changed.
i wonder how much i have changed.


anyway sorry x 1000 to chin for "flying kite".
hontoni gomenasai.