rant #1

why is Jay having an autograph session in Malaysia and not here too?
argh why why why?
we're separated by a mere bridge and just a 6-hour drive away.
why doesn't he come to fulfil my wish?
i can even forsake my exams.
WHY??? *in agony

rant #2

why do i lack self-discipline?
i don't have any motivating factor to push myself to study.
every 10 mins or so, my eyes wander off to my laptop.
at this rate, i'm gonna suffer from yet another anxiety attack on the eve of each exam day.

and all i can think about now is why Jay isn't coming to Singapore to hold an autograph session.

i can only describe myself in one word.
deranged.