i don't even wanna talk about today's paper.
i'm starting to get nightmares about getting the crappy results like last year.
and i'm not even talking about getting As.
i just wish to maintain my CAP of 3.3, so is that really difficult?

once again my mood's down in the pits.
it sucks when you put in effort and in the end it turns out like crap.
that's why i'll rather not put in the effort in the first place.
so at least you don't get this shitty feeling in the aftermath.

and tv just had to remind me about how aimless i am.
how i landed up in NUS majoring in life sciences in a blur.
how i admire people with ambitions in life.
or at least when asked about their career choice, they can give an answer.
it's definitely better than someone who merely shrugs it off.

i'm tired.
not just of the exams but of life in general.
is wanting a purpose-driven life very idealistic?
or am i not the only one feeling this way too?

i really don't know anymore.