holed up in the reference library today.
the security guard even had to drive me out, ha.

been bogged down by work lately.
so much that i've lost track of time.
only by looking at the wall calender did i realise it was friday already.

with time flying past like that,
i can't help but feel lost.
lost with the flow of time.
lost about the future.

the few shows i watched recently had recurring themes about the future.
3 different people with 3 different problems.

#1 with no goal in life.
didn't need to because he could get anything he wanted.
#2 wondering what she's doing is right.
because she always goes with the flow.
#3 without a direction.
feeling apprehensive and frightened about the future.

it struck me deeply because i'm also doubtful of my future.
i'm more like the unoriented #3.
however the fear gradually made me became like #2.

but there is a difference between me and them.
they managed to solve their problems in the end.

#1 met someone who gave him a goal and a heart to love.
#2 met a group who changed her outlook of life.
#3 went on a journey and found some answers.

will there be that someone/group/journey for me too?
somewhere out there in the big big world?