i absolutely cannot afford to have any distractions now that i wasted my saturday and sunday on frivalous matters(i.e. playing games).
bored to tears going through all the readings.
readings are such a pain seriously.

exams are in 3 days' time. 22 apr.
and 3 may is my liberation day. woohoo.
with that i'm officially ending my stint as a year 1 which is both dreadful and wonderful at the same time.
dreadful because year 2 will be back to haunt me in 3 months' time.
wonderful because it's the much anticipated and deserved holidays.

the past week was both fun and horrible.
horrible for the first 3 days because of the LSM CAs.
on thursday, my superbly cool HY2247 lecturers pulled off yet another cool thing by bringing in ESPN broadcasters John Dykes and Jamie Reeves as guest lecturers. (a 1st in NUS, or so they say)
and many were decked out in their fave sport jerseys, pretty cool too. :)

notice the manutd jersey? well i wore it after all.
thanks to janey who loan it to me.
did i just forgot to mention how cool john dykes is?

went for the commerative mass on friday.
i actually wanted to drop the idea of going midway through my long perilous journey(1.5 hrs!) because i knew i would be late and the rain dampened my mood. but fortunately i didn't and i'm really glad.
one most touching moment for me was when the fire was passed row by row and candles began burning one by one.
it was so much like lighting up with hope.
then the slideshow of our beloved pope filled me with tears.
i'm so glad that his death has strengthened my decision in search of a faith.
and i realised i do miss masses quite a bit.

met jane in school before setting out for mass.
she casually commented, "wah you gonna be a catholic?" when i confirmed i was going for mass. i know many people are rather rigid in their opinions towards religion. i used to be like that too, thinking that those who frequent churches are holy.
now i know that's wrong. i think churches give even non devotees a peace of mind and spiritual belonging.

now news kept going on about the coloured smoke from the Vatican Sistine Chapel. i'm rather nervous about the identity of the upcoming pope.
i know it's wrong but i still can't accept someone else being pope just as yet.

side note:
something's incredibly wrong with blogger's preview function.
it keeps cutting off the section after this so i had to retype 3 times!!!
so you guys better pay attention to the parts below because i put in so much effort for it to appear. heh.
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oh yeah i'm gonna copy chin's idea.
so here's my...

things to do after the bloody exams
~ excercise
~ catch up with my friends
~ spend more time with my parents
~ earn money ie find a job
~ do something meaningful/enriching ie pick up a new skill?
~ do things i want ie watch anime, read manga, play games blah

and speaking about games, i'm recently very excited about the new FFXII.
recalling last year when i was crazily tapping on the buttons of the PS console controlling a certain Squall or Zidane, ooh how i miss RPG games. too bad i don't own a console so whoever has a console or willing to play with me, just leap into my arms after the exams haha. i'm serious leh :)

how i wish exams can be over right now.
maybe i shouldn't stress myself too much because i think i can't work well under too much stress and end up avoiding it altogether which makes things worse.
please, just give me no Cs and below and i'll be a happy girl.
don't you think it sucks if you study real hard and you get shitty results? i'm afraid it may happen to me. but ok i didn't exactly study hard, i'll be lying if i said i did. probably just study harder compared to last semester. heh. i was really horrible last semester, i admit.

ok i think i'm getting addicted with talking to myself now.
i'll type on and on and go terribly out of point if i don't stop here right now.

meanwhile i'll be on hiatus mode until exams are over.
that seems like a logical thing to do right? or maybe i may pop in to rant about how terrible the exam was and how i'm gonna fail blah blah, which was certainly last semester's trend.
chances are pretty high and so if you enjoy reading my rants, check back in here. haha.

all the best to me and everyone who's taking the exams.
(i needed it)