Another entry.
I shouldn't be doing this but I just can't keep my hands off the laptop once it's switched on. *smacks myself*

I keep telling myself I deserve one hell of a break, because the past 4 days I've been...
[+] almost 24/7 hitting the books
[+] sleeping like 3-4 hrs a day
[+] battling with my slacker attitude
[+] almost suffered from anxiety attacks for I-dunno-how-many times.

Yeah, hehe 4 DAYS man.
It is quite a big deal to me.

And it takes this one day break to make me tumble, yet again.
*Roar*
I am being lazy again. I can't focus again.
Why is my self-discipline so short lived?

I forgot to mention this utterly disgusting thing.
During my puke-licious organic chem yesterday, there were actually people who finished the paper and left more than half an hour before the exam.
And WTF, there were more than 10 of them.
Wondering why I noticed when I should be so busy doing my questions?
That's because I had too much free time, i.e. I had no idea how to do like 85% of the paper and the staggering quantity of them was too hard to be left unnoticed.

Now THAT was such a hard blow to my already-quite-puny ego, not to mention it adds to the mentality of me being such a stupid ass.
There are people out there that can finish the paper so fast while morons like me don't even know the answer to half the questions.
And that kinda confirms the fact that I probably have 90% of being in the utmost bottom of the curve, thus belonging in the 'Fail' category.

Those people, grrr...
They probably can't wait to get out the exam halls, scramble back to put on their nerdy spectacles and continue mugging so they can show how much of a genius they are at the next exam.

I hate them. Period.